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Tuesday, June 3rd, 2003
2:22 pm
*twitches* Im bored...someone..please...make me do something! I need some excitement...or not.
Monday, March 24th, 2003
3:06 pm
rumiloflorien, _uruviel_, trillium_morwen! You guys better come and hang out soon!! Jerks!
Tuesday, October 1st, 2002
2:40 pm
Well Im back. Muns being a complete bitch *glares at her mun* stupid bitch! She's annoying! but i'll put up with her. Ive gone through afew changes too. You'll be seeing them soon. Stupid mun's busy. Shes always too damn busy for her puppet. *shakes head*

*glances at mun* hmmm maybe i can hit her over the head with a frying pan..*plots revenge*
Sunday, September 15th, 2002
10:41 am
hey bro wanna hang out sometime? Im bored..lemme know.
Thursday, August 15th, 2002
2:13 pm
Well Jesse and i are back together..if anyone has a problem with it...tough. *hisses angerly*

voo-doo dolls are alot of fun...who should i use em on next? *shrug* i'll think about it later.
Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
11:44 am
*smiles* Well, ive packed a picnic lunch for today. I on my way jesse

*swears to herself* I still have paint all over me! I hope i can wash it off later on.

*arrives* jesse im here! =)
Monday, August 12th, 2002
4:22 pm
Well *smiles* my ex husbands back...yes i was married at one time. I just kept it from everyone. I already feel alot better. I hope jesse and i can do something soon.

Current Mood: cheerful
Saturday, August 10th, 2002
4:48 pm




these is what my daughter gave me to feel better... *twitches* theyre cute..but... Im sorry theyre not going to make me feel better... i think...theyre all cute..what should i name them? any suggestions?
4:10 pm
*breaths fire*

*silence*

*is cranky* so stay away. or i'll kill you.

Im pmsing, i have a frying pan and i know how to use it

Current Mood: cranky
Saturday, August 3rd, 2002
5:43 pm
My muns such a bitch at times. *shakes head* She can be really nice when she wants to be. But today just isnt one of those days. She critizies everything i do. Im about to throttle her.

((i cant help it if my puppets a retard. ))


Anyways...my daughter and i are having a disagreement about her getting a piercing. She can get her ears done now...but nothing else. not intill shes out on her own.
Friday, August 2nd, 2002
7:19 pm
I think im going to go lie down...maybe if i think things over i'll feel better. *glances at her. She looks like me..and someone else..i cant put my finger on it. *sighes* i dont remember ever having a kid. Maybe this is really all a mistake. *shrugs*
7:07 pm
Seriously..i dont know what shit ive gotten myself into. Pippins upset about me and this thing with her and not knowing her father. Half of me hopes this whole thing was a mistake..that shes really not mine. But the other half of me hopes so...i really do care about her. *sighes*

Pip maybe you and i can talk things over..i really dont know what to do here...im confused..and i feel bad about disappointing you. Im so sorry...

Current Mood: numb
6:20 pm
my mun is really getting to me..shes got sunburn so shes all pissy. *shakes head* Someone help me?!?
5:33 pm
Hmmm....im going to write anouther song soon..ive got the urge to sit down and write one.

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I wish i could find out who the father of my daughter is... *sighes* i'll never know...
5:17 pm
my daughter wants to get her eyebrow and tongue pierced...I dont really want her to. I had it done...it wasnt anything to write home about..I now see what my father went through. *shakes head* I guess i'll think about it. But im not guaranteeing anything.

Current Mood: discontent
Thursday, August 1st, 2002
1:56 pm
Ummm..ok change of plans. marie wants to go see the elves...i guess theres no harm in that. *smiles*
11:37 am
marie is so fun to be around with. *sighes* i wish id been there for her from the beginning. But i didnt know i had a daughter intill now. Well..im going to be leaving to go to Bree. I got a job at the prancing pony doing waitressing. Thank youbutterbur! I know that Bree might not be the best place to bring my daughter to. But i was getting so tired of being around him in Gondor. Im not going to go to the Shire cause i have enemies there. Bree i think is the best place to go...
Marie wants to go see the elves. *smiles slightly* Im defiantely not going to take her to where She is. *makes face* NO..that wouldnt be wise for me to do. Im definately not going there. *looks at her* She wont tell me who was taking care of her before she came to me. She wont tell me who the father is either. *sighes* I dont think i'll ever figure that one out. I wish i could find out who did that to me...so i can beat the shit out of him...but im really not complaining either. I know maries my daughter cause theres a mother-daughter bond between us..its hard to explain.. All that matters is that i care about her, and love her. heroins trying to take her away from me... still bitching about me "starving" myself. He also said i wouldnt be a good parent. Well..fuck him. Im not going to take that shit anymore. I dont need him. I dont need someone like that pulling me down. I dont know what i was smoking when i got with him. *shakes head*



Merry, Pip if you ever come to Bree...and you need a drink. its on me..cause im workin at the prancing pony now. If you ever need anything im here. *smiles* And that goes for my sisters as well.

Well...i better get going...i have things to do..

Current Mood: moody
11:28 am
a song for my daughter..
Marie's Song

Intro
Yo I can't sing…but I feel like singing. I want to fuckin' sing…cuz I'm happy…yea…I'm happy. I got my baby back…yo…check it out...

Verse 1
Somedays I sit staring out the window, watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for. I almost break down and cry.
Sometimes I think I'm crazy. I'm crazy, oh so crazy. Why am I here? Am I just wasting my time
But then I see my baby, suddenly I'm not crazy. It all makes sense when I look into her eyes

Chorus
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders. Everyone's leaning on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over, but then she comes back to me.

Verse 2
My baby girl keeps getting' older. I watch her grow up with pride.
People make jokes cuz they don't understand me, they just don't see my real side
I act like shit don't phase me, inside it drives me crazy. My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby, suddenly I'm not crazy. It all makes sense when I look in her eyes.

Verse 3
Man, if I could sing, I'd keep singin' this song to my daughter. If I could hit the notes, I'd blow something as long as my father
to show her how I feel about her. How proud I am that I got her. God, I'm a mommy, I'm so glad that her dad didn't (want her)
Now you probably get this picture from my public persona that I'ma pistol packin' drug addict who bags on her father.
But I wanna to just take this time out to be perfectly honest, cuz there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside
of my soul. And just know that I grow colder the older I grow. This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold,
and this load is like the weight of the world, and I think my neck is breakin'. Should I just give up or try to live up to these expectations?
Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself, but I got an ex that's determined to make my life livin' hell.
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt. So many chances, man, it's too bad - could have had someone else
But the years that I've wasted is nothing to the tears that I've tasted, so here's what I'm facin'…3 felonies, 6 years of probation.
I've went to jail for this man, I've been to bat for this man. I've taken bats to people's backs, bent over backwards for this man.
Man, I should have seen it coming. What did i ever see in it? Wouldn't have stayed clear if I'da seen what she was fuckin.'
But fuck it, it's over. There's no more reason to cry no more. I got my baby, baby the only one that I adore
(mari). So sayonara, try tommorra, nice to know ya. Our baby's traveled back to the arms of her rightful owner.
And suddenly it seems like my shoulder blades have just shifted. It's like the greatest gift you could get. The weight has been lifted.

Chorus

Outro
Told you I can't sing..Oh well... I tried... marie, remember when I said if you ever need anything, mom would be right there? Guess what? mom's here, and I ain't going nowhere, baby. I love you…(kiss)

Current Mood: creative
Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
2:22 pm
.......I have a daughter? How? *shrug* she does sorta look like me...guess its not a mistake...heh.

well...Marie...ummm welcome home!?! heh *chews lip nervously*

I dont think i got knocked up a while ago when i was off on my own.... *shrug*

Current Mood: nervous
1:01 pm
Gah my head hurts... *turns over in bed* WTF!?! *stares at you. hi..what do you want?
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