a song for my daughter..
Yo I can't sing…but I feel like singing. I want to fuckin' sing…cuz I'm happy…yea…I'm happy. I got my baby back…yo…check it out...
Somedays I sit staring out the window, watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for. I almost break down and cry.
Sometimes I think I'm crazy. I'm crazy, oh so crazy. Why am I here? Am I just wasting my time
But then I see my baby, suddenly I'm not crazy. It all makes sense when I look into her eyes
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders. Everyone's leaning on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over, but then she comes back to me.
My baby girl keeps getting' older. I watch her grow up with pride.
People make jokes cuz they don't understand me, they just don't see my real side
I act like shit don't phase me, inside it drives me crazy. My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby, suddenly I'm not crazy. It all makes sense when I look in her eyes.
Man, if I could sing, I'd keep singin' this song to my daughter. If I could hit the notes, I'd blow something as long as my father
to show her how I feel about her. How proud I am that I got her. God, I'm a mommy, I'm so glad that her dad didn't (want her)
Now you probably get this picture from my public persona that I'ma pistol packin' drug addict who bags on her father.
But I wanna to just take this time out to be perfectly honest, cuz there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside
of my soul. And just know that I grow colder the older I grow. This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold,
and this load is like the weight of the world, and I think my neck is breakin'. Should I just give up or try to live up to these expectations?
Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself, but I got an ex that's determined to make my life livin' hell.
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt. So many chances, man, it's too bad - could have had someone else
But the years that I've wasted is nothing to the tears that I've tasted, so here's what I'm facin'…3 felonies, 6 years of probation.
I've went to jail for this man, I've been to bat for this man. I've taken bats to people's backs, bent over backwards for this man.
Man, I should have seen it coming. What did i ever see in it? Wouldn't have stayed clear if I'da seen what she was fuckin.'
But fuck it, it's over. There's no more reason to cry no more. I got my baby, baby the only one that I adore
(mari). So sayonara, try tommorra, nice to know ya. Our baby's traveled back to the arms of her rightful owner.
And suddenly it seems like my shoulder blades have just shifted. It's like the greatest gift you could get. The weight has been lifted.
Told you I can't sing..Oh well... I tried... marie, remember when I said if you ever need anything, mom would be right there? Guess what? mom's here, and I ain't going nowhere, baby. I love you…(kiss) Current Mood: creative